Losing the way…
Kahaan hoon main
Kahaan hoon, main abhi
Kahaan hoon main
Kahaan hoon, main abhi…
Aahein darr khushi, raaste
Kachchi baatein sachchi, vaaste
Kahin pe in sab mein
Kahaan hoon… main
The sky was subdued.Huge mountains are clustered together over the lake,closed around, blocking the sunrays from reaching me. A wisp of cold air scuttled across the horizon,reminding that there is a river flow hovering in the mountains ready to whisk everything away at any given time.
Iam at the pit bottom of the jungle. The trees seemed to stir around me with the leaves trembling in the anticipation of darkness to come causing an involuntary shiver.The foot hills were burrowed into the mountains.The endless curved path looms out making me dizzy.The wild life is lurking in the shadows waiting for the gloom to settle before showing its face .
A fear grips me. This is not the place I have to be or I planned to be. This is something scary. I twirl around the lake to find a way out. All I see is the ghost of the mountain smile reflecting the confusion of my thoughts, making me more vulnerable. I stand there stunned staring at the dappled sun,spiral path in the mountains and valleys nestled in between not all sure , how to find a way out of this maze.
Did I wander into this place lost? Did I walk in here with my eyes wide open? Did someone push me into this? Or Am I being deliberately steered here to find my treasure. How did I end up here… Do I know where Iam going or Where I need to go from here? Can I trust my instincts to put the next foot without the fear of falling into a ditch.
“God, how I ricochet between certainties and doubts.”
I take a deep breath trying to calm myself. With all the strength I can muster I tread the first step, realizing that worrying gets me nowhere,perpending only pulls me down…. all I can do is move forward leaning on myself believing in my senses to guide me out of this and hoping that Iam not rejected, Iam just redirected.
& finding ourselves.
” All of us are lost, It’s how well we find our way back defines us”